going home.

yup, will be home on e 31st dec, 520am in the morning. bad timing but tt's the only timing i can get. well..going to miss holland i guess and definitely all my frenz here. the life here though boring, is slow. dunno how am i gg to fit into the hectic life in spore again..and the weather.. haa.. hot and sweaty weather man.. but good oso..can wear less.. here wearing so much makes my shouders and neck ache. ok..dunno wat to write liao..c u guys back in spore!

it snowed!

yesh! i saw real snow for the first time! amazing.. sounds sua-gu huh.. but it's really a very nice feeling! at first i tot it's the haze again.. den i saw some white stuffs flying around and tt's snow! wat a sight.. it's really nice but it was in the early morning..everyone is sleeping.. only me standing alone in the corridor wif big jacket letting the snow hit me..haa. wat luck.. to be able to see snow before i leave.. though it might only be for a while. den in the day, it snowed now n den with rain.. morning one is the nicest! with juz snow and wind. wow..this is the nicest thing in delft le..

add on

i wan to write down a list of things i wan to do when i go back..

top on the list -- visit the dentist!!!!! den i will buy an electronic toothbrush. after that i shall go cut my hair at my favourite stylist place. hope he's still around. and den, i will stick a piece of crystal on my tooth.

second on the list -- i wan to do facial. i wan to go for hols.. mayb during term break or before school starts! heh.. den i wan to eat!! prata.. actually tt's the only food on my mind.. prata with condense milk!!! and i wan to drink irish coffee at o'brian!

third on the list -- i wan to go clubbing! with bb, za, and all my girlfrens.. yeah, no guys allow.. haa. i wan to send a present to amelie, my best exchange fren from france! i wan to go for supper wif my rulang gang! and to JB at night of course!

fourth on the list -- i wan to leave the tv on n sleep! i wan to walk in orchard road! not so sure abt shopping though.. mayb buy some nice clothes for the new yr. i wan to speak in mandrian and all my lahs lohs mah meh.. haha.

work work work

here i am..taking a break from my work..wan to die can..really hated working while ppl are having hols..argh.. i'm getting retarded.. i dunno how to render anymore and i dunno how to capture views.. i left all my skills in the pc at jurong west blk 662A 7th floor the unit wif very nice house plate in the room with a table which has it's bending moment stretched to it's optimiun point. photoshop seems foreign to me.. and my blding is freaking ugly.. mayb on the day of presentation i juz vomit some blood and spill it onto my panels so no one can see how ugly tt piece of housing is! den mayb they will juz pity me and let me pass n go home. yes..i miss home, especially at this very moment. no one to buy lunch for me when i'm hungry.. no childcare left over food for high tea.. no 24hrs ready hot water to make coffee.. no nothing.. argh.. i wan to go back to the castle with king and queen and a princess life awaiting..

so fast.

time has wings, it flies. my exchange in delft is gonna end soon n i'll be gg back to reality. being in a foreign country is like being put into another dimension. it seems so recent that i was complaining the lack of clothings, stationery and food when i first came. almost got my mom to send me stuffs that i tot i need. but i have since survived wif the bare necessity. doing homework with the limited number of pens and zero paper clips. sometimes i like buying things i thought i need but in the end i din use at all. like i bought milo cos i tot i will drink but i only make milo twice. i like to have food in my room but i dun like to eat. i used to barge into my kitchen back home a few times in the night to search for food. u noe, in the night, what's there will be there.. no extra food will appear no matter how many times u search. but i juz like to open the fridge n cupboard to ransack the same food again n again. even if i found my favourite food like orea, sometimes i dun eat too and i juz complain that there's no food in the cupboard. so over here, i will juz buy food and keep overtime..so i will have a supply of food to look at and feel contented that i have food to search for. mayb this is kaisu-ism cos it might be because i'm afraid tt food will run out one day so i keep stocking up. or mayb i dun like the idea of emptyness. or mayb i'm juz weird. but one thing nv change, i'm always rushing. i think i'm juz slow.. tt's y have to rush everytime for submission..

what makes u who u r?

i was thinking.. what determined our traits, our character? physical traits like small eyes, big nose or even 1 eye, half a nose are genetically determined, so we can do nothing about it, unless u r thinking of having a plastic surgery. den how about our character? ren zi chu xing ben shan or ren zi chu xing ben er? if we put two new born bbies in the exact same environment, eat the exact same food, mix wif the exact same ppl, watch the exact same tv program, go to the exact same school, will they grow up having the same character? is there a gene inside us tt controls how naughty we are? i know there's a left n right brain tt control the emotive n logical part of us. is tt oso sub divided into how naughty or how lazy we can get? if one person has more 'naughty' genes, den he's naturally more 'gek xiao' den others? if we are all born equal other den the physical traits, den is it the environment tt shape us? traits like musically talented i can understand.. i think tt has to do wif the left n right brain part. but traits like more nua, more bia, more kaisu, more bo chu have to do with which factor? it's like some ppl kena said 'eh u v nua leh', den they rebutt 'i'm juz like tt leh, there's nothing i can do'.. but wat makes u juz lidat? u r inborn a nua kid, so since young u don't bother to cry even when u r hungry? if tt's the case, i got nothing to say.. it's really inborn..cannot change even if the sky falls.. but i dun believe ppl can be borned nua! how can? can u imagine.. when the mom is giving birth to the nua gia.. den the kid took 1 day to come out cos for evey 2cm he moves, he took a nap for 5hrs.

yyyyyyyyyy? how come there's phrase like 'oh tt's juz her..' does she ever noe wat makes her 'juz her'? oh man.. i dunno if anyone can answer my question.. but try lah..ok? anyway, the nua is not directed to anyone i noe k.. i'm juz too paiseh to use my traits as examples..cos it will mayb take a few yrs to finish writing..but if u really v nua..den mayb u can give it a tot too lah.. or u got other traits tt's not listed.. can oso tell me..

happy Belated bdae song!

hey song, sorry for the late wish..wasn't around at tt moment.. hope u had a wonderful bdae!!!!!!

ruif

i went to the ruif yesterday, a pub in old delft. it's my first time there.. quite a loser..haa. been here for so long le.. well at least i've been there. the pub is really crowded, no space to walk AT ALL. we juz stood around n talked among ourselves. den me n zada retreated to a corner at the bar n juz sat n talked. za said we r like the asian loser..but nvm lah, nobody cares anyway n somemore got cute bartender there. den suddenly one guy popped up n asked if we're frm singapore.. oh man, we really got the singapore look meh.. turned out tt he did his internship in spore n he really likes it there. haha.. first time, i heard ppl talked of spore with so much enthusiasm. but it's nice, den can relate n tell him a lot of stuffs abt spore. ok..i gtg n pay my rent now..supper sian!!!!

myanmar

darr went myanmar.. will only be backed on 10th Dec.