furniture

i was visiting the boijmans van beuningen museum in rotterdam when i suddenly has this tot. i would design all the furniture my house in the future. isn't tt cool. all furniture, right down to the forks and spoons i use. so my house will grow slowly, from empty to a real furnished house, in mayb 20 yrs later. but it's gonna be expensive, so there will not be any interior design needed. juz simplest concrete with screed paving. the furniture shall be the only form of decoration. isn't that nice?

chop chop carrr-lee pok!

i better chop chop do my design..if not no time to go travel..or rather cannot travel wif a peace of mind.

when u have a motive, u have a direction.

the right time

is there a right time for everything to happen? if class starts at 8, is it not right to arrive at 8.30? then y is not wrong to arrive at 7.30? if standard working days are from monday to friday, do u feel cheated if u have to work on weekends? if weekends are meant for play and family, den y can we still play on weekdays? if u sleep late and wake up early, will u die younger? if u start eating only in the evening, are u having breakfast or dinner? if u do the right thing at the right time, does that make u a more sucessful person or u juz dun bother to change? if u do the right thing at the wrong time, are u considered a loser or u r only being more creative?

if u r having exams now, y are u still reading my blog?

icy weather.

it rained hail today. i'm not sure if it's the right way to use this word cos this is the first time i'm using it which implies, the first time i'm seeing it. it's cute..to see ice falling from the sky. small tiny icy cold hard spheres that bounces off the ground. i even took off my gloves to feel the hail. amazing. this is something my country can't give.. a weather wif an attitude. a weather tt can strike ur head and wake up ur idea. a weather that can change ur mood totally from bad to good and den slamp it damn hard to ground zero again. a weather that controls ur daily activities. a weather that reminds u that u r still part of the world. there's only 2 types of weather in spore. hot and cold; natural and man-made. we put air conditioning in almost every place, to reach for the human comfort level, or so they call it. comfort level for the inside but world wide pollution for the outside. but are u really comfortable inside? u made it so cold that u have to wear jacket n sweater or is it juz a show off that u have a nice pull over u got from ralph lauren? take off the jacket, go out enjoy the sun. it's good for the skin too.. can get free vitamin D.

for A.I.J.I.A.

i was commenting in your blog when i realised that i forgot my username and password for xanga. and if i sign up again, it will be e third time le.. so decided to juz comment here and fate will bring u here to read if u r meant to read it.. ya.. i juz want to tell you that i couldn't read the chinese words in ur blog ah.. so everytime i go to ur blog, i came out disappointedly.. boo. n i did the personality test in ur blog.. i'm shancai.. but i have 0% conviction and 100% doubt abt the result.. so stop doing so much of e quizz le lah..haa.. pian ren one.. =p. how's ur exams? hope they went well! and jia u for all taking exams as well.. i saw a rainbow in delft (really).. u guys will pass ur exams with flying colours!

replying to goodbyes

i noe y i have to constantly check if there's ppl on msn i can talk to. time difference. i'm 7 hours behind. though most of my frenz sleep at weird hrs like 3am.. i'm still the one to reply to their goodnites. our time diff is so large that i will never be the one to say goodnite first. i hate this. i'm always lagging behind. even moving to a new place, i have to choose one that moves behind time. my fren said in her blog, always face the sun so the shadow is behind u. the sun starts setting at 4pm here, i'll be in complete shadow after tt, whether the sun is infront or behind doesn't matter anymore. when i'm done, there's no one i can say goodnite to. mayb to my little marimo who refuse to grow anymore. it has reached maturity, according to darren. does tt mean it's gg to age and die soon too? i'm still there when my frenz wake up and say hi to me. they have started a brand new day while i'm still struggling and hope my day doesn't come yet cos' there's endless stuffs i have yet to finish. mayb i can understand y some ppl have no faith in long distance relationship. it's not so much of not being able to see, hold hands or kiss each other. it's a matter of being there at the exact moment u need someone to be there. it's not being physically there but jus the thought that u noe he's also working hard while u r struggling makes u stronger.

i wan to be the one to say goodnite first.. can i?

MSN

i can't live without msn here. i checked it constantly to see if there's anyone i can talk to. i can't live alone. i can't live without talking to someone. i miss my phone, i miss the sound of my assigned ringtone for darren. i miss the display pixs my phone shows when my frens call me. i miss the voices of chinese tv drama, even if it's a local production. i miss those late nights when i will just laugh at the old movies tcs shows. i miss the times when i will watch indians' movies and follow the subtitles conscientiously. i miss the moments when i watch out of my window late at night just to see the reflection of the traffic lights on the window next block and wait for it to turn red, den green again. i miss the red chinese lamp by the ancestors' table in the opposite block, on e eight floor i remembered. i miss seeing the elevator goes up and down in the block beyond the opposite block. i miss views that are not static even if it's late at night. i miss my mom's nagging me to go bathe. i miss my dad's asking me how to do photoshop, even though they are always the same questions. i miss my grandma asking me to eat. i miss my grandpa too, even after so many years. i miss the fishes. i miss sneaking out of the house late at nights when everyone is sleeping. i miss going to JB without telling my folks. i miss the anticipation of my dad's calling in e morning to ask where i was where in the end he only asked if i took the house key. i miss all e small insignificant moments that make my life so real. i miss my weirdness.

will i miss all the misses when i go back, i wonder. there are too many things we take for granted. start appreciating now.

getting out of the room..

Nice weather today, sunny and not too cold. amelie asked if i would like to go delft centre with her. she said the weather is too good, has to get out even though she has to read the aldo rossi book. tempting but yet i'm a bit reluctant. design is holding me back. when i'm in the mist of something, i wouldn't wan to stop. but i couldn't bear to reject my dear fren's kind invitation. decided that i have to be more sociable too. hack design, juz go out and enjoy the sun. and amelie's right! it's really nice, juz cycle ard and explore like i nv been there before. we sw some nice houses and went to look for the 'seven alleys' near the factories area. she's good, can navigate very well. i like it a lot. when tj told me i have to get out more, i'm skeptical. cos i really dread gg out in the cold. i'm not well equiped with warm clothes. but today, i think letting myself out really helps. helps me to not think of design and juz wonder around. and it suddenly keeps me thinking, mayb i should do that also when i get back. jus flip some SIA magazines and visit the places when i'm bored. i think there's too much other things i can do in spore that i wouldn't think of visiting buildings. but over here, there's really no activities i can do on a sunday other than taking my bike and wonder around. and i realised how much i have missed.

take a step back and think. have u been missing out too much in life? have u been constantly being pushed by people to move on? all the things u have done so far, are u really aware of it?

will u do it?

"you need to draw some plans, sections and mayb elevations.. will u do it?" i smiled. of course i will do it. u are such a darling tutor. absolutely love u. and your kid is so cute and obedient. neutelings said architects don't design for ourselves, we design for people. i design for u. "can i draw on your paper?" u asked, many tutors juz draw on anything they see, without asking. "it's juz a suggestion, u dun have to follow." u said this everytime u suggest something new. u r trying not to be dictating. at least ur suggestions make sense and are constructive. thanks, a big thanks. i hope u will stay like this till end of final crit, n even end of ur teaching career. i have a tutor last time, juz like u. very nice guy but so nice that everything is ok with him. but i think u r better than that, i can see that ur comment is sharp and critical, at least tt's wat i think. mayb u will be the one to rekindle the architecture flame in me tt has somehow dimmed in the past year. give me a light... i need to see.

double back!

yeah.. back from paris and back to my own room! well..actually not exactly 'yeah'.. cos paris is beautiful and my bro's room is warm with high speed computer. so, no hurray for being back to boring delft and my cold room. Paris is really nice.. with many many monuments to see and many heard-of-only-but-no-chance-to-see buildings. but i'm really lazy to upload photos.. shall consider getting multiply soon. Den i see notre dame came true..haa.. did a project on notre dame but actually the project i anyhow do..cos no time and really dun understand all the terms they used. but nevertheless, at least i visited my project..haa. think i like the arabe institute most.. it's really the kind of building tt i will go 'wow....' den u see the shutters open n close..how hapz. how..i dun wan to do design..no inspiration no motivation. it's only 3.40pm and the sun is setting.. how to work in this bloody condition.. felt so helpless and yet dun wan to receive help. i'm juz dumb..

my favourite stairs in the arabe institute.. from now on, all my designs shall have scissor stairs.