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new top!!

2007-03-01T20:30:00.000+08:00

Got this new top from Essue 21 in Square 2.. like it so much..can't wait to wear it!! Salegirl said the boss designed it.. quite a good piece i must say..will probaby go back and scout for more stuffs next time!

practise!

2007-01-19T14:18:00.000+08:00

i think i have speech disorder or something. there's a problem of expressing myself, i can't seem to get my points across. i think it's time for self help. i should practise talking everyday. use the correct words to avoid misunderstanding. it can be quite frustrating when wat you are thinking isn't wat you are saying.

boo

2007-01-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

boo... can i give up le???

eating disorder

2006-12-16T16:33:00.000+08:00

sabotaged 2 times by darren made me very mad. unhappiness caused me to have no appetite and i lost the desire to eat. this upset my grandma cos' she doesn't like to see her granddaughter starving. she kept asking me to eat n offer to cook maggie mee for me but my constant refusal started to back her off. in the end she left my room disappointedly. i'm sorry, i don't mean to not listen to u but i really dun feel like eating. mayb i will eat a little later.

everyday

2006-11-22T01:29:00.000+08:00

everyday is so painful... if only you know.

bad day

2006-11-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

it's a bad day for me. in this day, i felt nothing else matters.

re-view

2006-11-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

juz finished reviewing all my past entries. realised i can be quite lame.. haha. the most classic is i commented on song's comment that we are jokers, who's the other 2?, we can make a deck of cards. biangz.. can't believe i said tt and can't believe i'm writing an entry on this! i guess i still like the lame me.. haha.

frog

2006-11-05T17:26:00.000+08:00

frogs have poor eye sight, that's why they only feed on moving insects.
bigger eye doesn't mean you can see more.
frogs are so adorable.
i should stop eating frog legs.

Brownie the cat

2006-09-08T16:39:00.000+08:00

tot i would close down the blog since it's long forgotten by me le.. but nevertheless.. let me share this nice song with everyone.

When I saw you sitting there
In your yellow flower chair
You were eating pink icecream
I fell in love with you

And you took me to your house
Among blue marshmallow clouds
And we waved at shooting stairs
We fell in love that day

Never knew someone like you
With your eyes you make me smile
If you leave me i'll be blue
Let me stay here by your side

You took me inside your dream
To a moon of cheese and cream
To star light we ate till dawn
I fell in love with you

And i wanna be your girl
And give you my credit card
I'll take you to paradise
You are welcome to my world

You, your're so cute
Love you
And I'll share my pillow too
With you never blue
Forgive everything you do

Hey Brownie, forever with you

Asked if I liked to fly
Then you took me on a drive
And we headed to the sky

Never knew someone like you
With your eyes you make me smile
If you leave me i'll be blue
Let me stay here by your side
You always give me something new

You, your're so cute
Love you
And I'll share my pillow too
With you never blue
Forgive everything you do

Come with me
Kiss me
Like a gentle memory
Touch me, follow me
Let me feet your love so sweet

Hey Brownie, forever with me
I know I love you
When you look up at me
With your eyes of green

- the brilliant green

bingo

2006-05-12T15:43:00.000+08:00

I'm right!!!! i never ice skate in the end!!!! actually am quite sad that i din get to skate but on the other hand, should be happy that i have guessed that I would not haf a chance to skate. ya..so happy loh.. guessed correctly that i din get to skate. so bo liao..

只想。。

2006-03-29T00:52:00.000+08:00

半夜三更，
冲个冷水澡，
没想什么，
只想生病。

一山还有一山高

2006-03-19T03:20:00.000+08:00

if i was very hardworking last sem, than this sem i'm super hardworking.
i thought i have reached my limit last sem.. but i guess one will never know one's limit.
miracle is always waiting at the end of the thunderstorm.
you will see the rainbow if you survive the thuderstorm.

shoes.sandals.slippers.

2006-03-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

my mom dun wan to help me wash my sandals, so i told her i wash myself. so tomorrow i will wash all my shoes, sandals and slippers at one go, such that i have no footwear to go out. tt will be my excuse to stay at home and reject all the invitations and errands. tt's me.. a very insensible girl.

blinded.

2006-03-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

recently there seems to be this agenda about blindness. both channel 8 n channel u have shows featuring blind lead actor and actress. if only i am blind,
den i dun have to see the ugly side of the world,
the untruthful side of my friends,
the insincerity of people.. if only i'm blind.

no life.

2006-03-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

haiz.. sometimes really dunno y i'm doing this. i love life but i have no power to enjoy it. i do not have time to do the things i like but i spent time doing the things i have to do. work n work n work for wat reason i dunno. no one to rely on n i can't rely on anyone. i can't even sleep properly. i lead this kind of shitty life no one understands.

the war is over.

2006-03-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

aki ... u won.. u have completely messed up my life.

my cousin

2006-03-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

A levels result was out a few days ago and my cousin got 4 As! congrats!! my aunt asked for my email address, i presumed that she wanna ask me about courses in NUS. however i din receive any email from her so i decided to send her sms instead. i told her to encourage my cousin to choose dentistry cos' it's a quick 4 yr course and she can earn big bucks. though it might be boring but it's the most well paid job with little hassel i think. dentistry din cross my mind last time cos i tot it would be so boring.. but i think given my personality.. even the most interesting job would be uninteresting in a few yrs time. since anything will got boring sooner or later.. it doesn't really matter? but luckily, she decided to do medicine which is prefect i thought. however i still think dentistry is a better choice, if u weigh the pros n cons to medicine. less studying time, less no of students, fix working hrs blah blah blah. anyway, good luck to her.. hope she gets wat she wans!!! jia u!

who can be a good architect?

2006-03-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

you can be a good architect if...

1) you are a loner; you have no other social circles beside architectural ones.
2) you have no spouse nor children
3) you are an orphan; you dunno what your parents look like.
4) you can take criticism from the lousiest tutor
5) you can be awake for 19hrs and sleep only 5hrs everyday, including sundays, saturdays and public holidays.
6) you can take breakfast at 12pm, lunch at 6pm, dinner at 12am, supper at 8am.
7) you can present like u nv done before even without sleep for 3 nights.
8) your hobbies are drawing plans, elevations, playing with autocad and cutting base wood.
9) you can breathe wood, eat glass and drink concrete.

ice skating

2006-03-04T13:09:00.000+08:00

i wan to ice skate, even though the ring is so pathetically small. every little free time i can squeeze out of my hectic timetable, ice skate will be my first pirority. so finally yesterday i had my chance. together with darren, we headed for the ring in jurong. but to our dismay, ice hockey tornament was in progress. the ring was in used from dawn till dusk. this tornament was to be held over a few days, so i can forsee that i wouldn't be able to skate till after my submission-- that will be in a few weeks time. what kind of life do i lead? so busy till i have no time for a 2 hrs of fun? i'm not doing any big business.. juz slogging my life away in an air-con faulty studio. ok, it's not i dun haf time, i do have time to sleep. but i juz dun haf the correct time slot, or darren time doesn't fit my time. i think by the time i'm free, i dun have the liking to go skating anymore.

daddy

2006-02-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

when i was still a little kid, my dad used to tell me, 如果你可以的话，daddy让你读. my dad nv failed his promise. i studied with a carefree mind, free from any form of financial burden. he supported me all this while, all the way till my university course. at a point of time, i had wanted to study medicine, i din even consider the large sum of money tt would require, i juz tot of wat i thought i wan. i dunno if my dad's worry abt seeing me thru the medicine course but i noe if i had wanted tt course, i will have my means, through bank loan or watsoever.

now i looked back. all thanks to my dad, because of wat he said, i never hesitate to choose wat i wan to study. i nv ever tot of the significant of tt statement till now. to me then, it was juz part of his nagging to urge me to study hard, to inject me with the idea tt earning a degree will enable good future. but now, that statement has another meaning to me. studying is not at all easy. how many midnight oil burnt, how many sleepless nights, how many no weekends in a role--countless. how many headaches, how many try harder next time, how many failure, how many success--infinite. if i'm prepared to take all these from pursuing my studies, daddy will support u.

i wish i can repay my dad his graces. his unconditioned love. now whenever i felt studying is taking on my toil, i shall rem wat he said. i will realise my studying is taking on his toil as well. it's inspiring, reminds me that i have someone to turn to.

thanks dad, i nv say but i love u.

Happy New Year!

2006-01-01T13:13:00.000+08:00

first day of 2006.. actually din really feel it coming.. it juz arrived like any other normal day. i'm probably too tired to notice or i simply juz wan it to come peacefully and quietly. i left holland on 30th dec and it snowed. i thought i was lucky, to be able to see snow, this time is really snowing and accumulating on the floor, before i left holland and snow came earlier this year. little did i know snow was actually the start of all my suay events. i reached schipol airport damn early cos there's no tram ride in the middle of the night and my flight is at 7am.. so i needa stay over at the airport. tt's alright, i'm used to staying over at the airport anyway.. choosing cheapskate airlines is lidat.. they have weird hrs and i dun wan to spend any money on taxi cos it's simply crazy.. to pay like 80 sing to go to the airport?! it was actually the second consecutive night i spent in the airport. when i checked in, there's a little mishap at the counter and i got to wait again. nvm, still no big deal. than boarded the plane successfully but waited for damn long for the plane to start moving. i slept and woke up the plane is still at the same position..i think it was delayed for at least half n hr. finally it moved. i have to catch a flight at vienna airport at 10am and at 9.50, i'm still in the air. ya, vienna airport closed down due to big snow.. and we had to stop over at Linz first. than there's this lady who started crying, i tot her mom's sick or wat and she has to fly back immediately, turned out she's attending her sis's wedding.. comon' do u have to cry till so badly for tt? den we flew back to vienna n yesh, i missed the flight back to spore. vienna transit lounge is really tiny. there's so many ppl at the service counter cos a lot of flights were missed. i think i queued for like 3 hrs before i could get a new ticket. i started to think, if only i'm a foreigner and transitting at changi.. really proud of changi airport. the next available flight is at 11pm and gotta transit at bangkok.. transit again, yes. so i gotta wait for another like 7hrs at vienna airport. it's really shitty man.. kept waiting and waiting. lucky i got my book and some biscuits with me. den boarded the plane and transit at bangkok..everything went smoothly. i tot my luck gonna change when i reached spore.. but.. yesh, every good thing has to end wif a but.. they lost my lagguages! the lady at the belt told me, they probably couldn't make it when they transit at bangkok... 'couldn't make it' she made it sounds so easy but my heart was really smashed to the core that any other form of pain could not be felt any further. i can't believed my suayness... zada always said u have to be suay 3 times den there will be a turn of luck.. but i dunno how many times i have suayed. definitely more den 3 including other some details tt i dun bother to fill in. for example, this morning i wan to go to the market to have breakfast.. comon' it's like the second time i'm gg to the market ever since i've moved here and it has to rain! and i juz received a call from the airport tt they found my lagguages and will be flown in this evening..but i really have to reserve my doubt whether the flight will get delayed anot.. really. ok..hope 2006 will be a fresh start for me. and next time, i will choose direct flight, at any cost.. really.

going home.

2005-12-25T03:03:00.000+08:00

yup, will be home on e 31st dec, 520am in the morning. bad timing but tt's the only timing i can get. well..going to miss holland i guess and definitely all my frenz here. the life here though boring, is slow. dunno how am i gg to fit into the hectic life in spore again..and the weather.. haa.. hot and sweaty weather man.. but good oso..can wear less.. here wearing so much makes my shouders and neck ache. ok..dunno wat to write liao..c u guys back in spore!

it snowed!

2005-12-18T04:15:00.000+08:00

yesh! i saw real snow for the first time! amazing.. sounds sua-gu huh.. but it's really a very nice feeling! at first i tot it's the haze again.. den i saw some white stuffs flying around and tt's snow! wat a sight.. it's really nice but it was in the early morning..everyone is sleeping.. only me standing alone in the corridor wif big jacket letting the snow hit me..haa. wat luck.. to be able to see snow before i leave.. though it might only be for a while. den in the day, it snowed now n den with rain.. morning one is the nicest! with juz snow and wind. wow..this is the nicest thing in delft le..

add on

2005-12-17T07:12:00.000+08:00

i wan to write down a list of things i wan to do when i go back..

top on the list -- visit the dentist!!!!! den i will buy an electronic toothbrush. after that i shall go cut my hair at my favourite stylist place. hope he's still around. and den, i will stick a piece of crystal on my tooth.

second on the list -- i wan to do facial. i wan to go for hols.. mayb during term break or before school starts! heh.. den i wan to eat!! prata.. actually tt's the only food on my mind.. prata with condense milk!!! and i wan to drink irish coffee at o'brian!

third on the list -- i wan to go clubbing! with bb, za, and all my girlfrens.. yeah, no guys allow.. haa. i wan to send a present to amelie, my best exchange fren from france! i wan to go for supper wif my rulang gang! and to JB at night of course!

fourth on the list -- i wan to leave the tv on n sleep! i wan to walk in orchard road! not so sure abt shopping though.. mayb buy some nice clothes for the new yr. i wan to speak in mandrian and all my lahs lohs mah meh.. haha.

work work work

2005-12-17T06:59:00.000+08:00

here i am..taking a break from my work..wan to die can..really hated working while ppl are having hols..argh.. i'm getting retarded.. i dunno how to render anymore and i dunno how to capture views.. i left all my skills in the pc at jurong west blk 662A 7th floor the unit wif very nice house plate in the room with a table which has it's bending moment stretched to it's optimiun point. photoshop seems foreign to me.. and my blding is freaking ugly.. mayb on the day of presentation i juz vomit some blood and spill it onto my panels so no one can see how ugly tt piece of housing is! den mayb they will juz pity me and let me pass n go home. yes..i miss home, especially at this very moment. no one to buy lunch for me when i'm hungry.. no childcare left over food for high tea.. no 24hrs ready hot water to make coffee.. no nothing.. argh.. i wan to go back to the castle with king and queen and a princess life awaiting..